It's a protective device; if I had to face the reality of his war crimes, his apocalyptic class terrors, his global burn-down— I'd surely self-incinerate.
Consequently, when his former Press Secretary, Scott McClellan, turned on the President in a recent White House memoir, the part I kept returning to, over and over again, was the "cocaine blackout."
Will you indulge me?
Scottie says W. claims he doesn't remember if he's ever felt the sensation of stinging white powder sear his nostril mucosa.
Really? What about numbing his gums, or his cock? Is that possible? Is cocaine the kind of gal you can just "space out," because you've had one too many Zombies? Does drinking really blot out everything in succession?
I don't believe anyone intuitively puts anything UP their nose besides their finger.
One can assume Georgie-Orgy lies compulsively; that was Scott McClellan's insinuation. But just as a matter of drug lore, how "forgettable" is cocaine in the pantheon of intoxicants?
I'm not the most experienced person to ask, but like Bush, I was one of those people, who by simply living through the 80s, sampled the party favors at hand. I succumbed to peer pressure without a whimper— my luck is that I'm not habitual about anything, so I never got in very deep.
But I will never forget 80s cocaine, because:
a) coke is harsh, there's a burn to it. I remember touching hot stoves, too.
b) the way cocaine was displayed at the time was so outlandish. Snorting with rolled-up $$$ bills, cutting it up with credit cards, the exquisite silver spoons that dangled in the tan cleavage of women who looked like Farah/Raquel/Olivia. My introduction to coke was at a publisher warehouse Xmas party where the loading dock tables were laid end to end, and the lines were six feet long. Someone moved a pile of "Cujo" to make way.
c) I was taken aback by how expensive it was for such a tiny bit of powder, and how short the high lasted. I felt...ripped off. I drifted back to the hash pipe. Sober, I already have extravagant ambitious impulses and conceits... my idea of pleasant inebriation is to escape ego altogether.
What kind of party drugs ARE forgettable?
Obviously, the boozy blackout is the class leader. Are all sedating drugs the forgettable culprits? Can you "forget" anything that takes you up?
Psychedelics are probably the most impossible to ignore. I wish we could get Bush on tape saying he can't decide whether he ever dropped acid or not. Can't remember whether he threw up the beer or the peyote. The ayahuasca is all a blur.
Okay, your turn! Feel free to comment anonymously if you want to protect the guilty.
Photo: Al Pacino Will Never Forget! - Scarface